less technical...

Today while Amanda and I were stuck in traffic on Van Nuys due to a sudden down-pour of rain, she suggested that I write something more 'personal', I guess the past few updates have been on the technical side, then she said, "you know... like Zach Braff's blog". I kinda' laughed at the comparison - but he does do a great job of mixing humorous-everyday-stuff with behind-the-scenes talk on Garden State... but I'm sure it helps that his "day job" is the hit-show 'Scrubs'.

Anyways; there is one thing that springs to mind when it comes to more 'personal' aspects of proj:pedal, but I don't know quite how to explain it, I know that probably seems strange. Where do I begin? In it's most simplest form, a film requires two things: people & money. I'm lucky enough to have three of the four crew positions filled [and with plenty of time to spare]. Not to mention it's been a huge relief that the crew I do have so far is bringing with them a long list of high-end filming equipment... I'm getting technical again... moving on.

But then there is the lack of financial interest. Which means I have the crew - but I can't feed or house them. I have the cameras but there's no film for them. I guess I had always assumed the money would come first, then the people. It's a more comfortable position to be in I suppose. Not that I'm complaining - I'm just concerned. I still have six months [just under] to raise the money and fill the last crew position [I'm looking for a sound person for anyone who might be curious], but sometimes those six months seem like tomorrow to me. I've had dreams, several actually, I guess they would be better described as nightmares, where it's suddenly May 29th, the day we are leaving, and everything is half-ready. Every time I wake up from them they are too 'fuzzy' to really recall, but I can still feel the tight-chest’ed panic attack... it takes a few minutes to shake off.

But - I mean for this to sound more 'positive' than it probably does - after all the three crew members I do have attached to proj:pedal are amazing, I can't wait to work with them. I'm just really looking forward to narrowing down the list of reasons I have to worry.